I’m not going to lie, I am happy to see 2019 end. Aside from 2002, the year my husband passed away after a 5 year battle with cancer, this has been the worst year of my life. I will leave it at that.
2020, the number itself lends itself to clever sayings and kitschy sentiments. For me, this coming year is a time of clarity. Seeing 2020 as it were. I believe in God and the power of prayer. For years I never understood people who said God told them to…(fill in the blank) it was about a year and a half ago that someone explained that the voice of God comes to you in a spontaneous thought. So I decided to pay attention to my thoughts especially when I pray. A lot of my time spent in prayer involved asking God His purpose for me.
Some time back, I really don’t remember when, I got the message that God wanted me to feed His people. Since I was trying to figure out a way to make my little farm pay my bills, I thought it had something to do with that. So I planned and planted. I had many seeds started but with moving my mom in with me in February and becoming her sole caretaker until she passed away in March, I did not get my garden planted early enough. For some unexplainable reason (I even asked a meterologist) summer rain and storms usually pass me by. So I had no measurable rain from May through September combined with 95+ degree days. What did start to grow was eaten by insects. The garden was a flop 🙁 Still I prayed. Again one morning I asked God his purpose for me and before I even got the thought out of my brain, he yelled at me, “feed my people”. Yes he yelled at me. It was like someone saying, ‘you dummy, I have been trying to tell you that!’ So I’m thinking if God wants me to grow a garden, He is going to have to change some weather patterns.
Since the garden was a goner, I decided to work on the garden beds and start to amend the soil. About that time I was asked if I would take over the childrens’ garden at a local school that serves low income families. I received the answer to my prayers. This is what God has planned for me. My plans are for a small food forest with perennial trees and berries as well as an annual garden in the raised beds. My hope is to have the food forest be somewhat self sustaining in future years so even when I am gone, the children will still enjoy the fruits of the garden.